well, when I got home he had not moved. My emotions are getting the best of me. I KNOW this is a very time of year for him. I sat outside for a long time today just thinking.

I wanted him gone 6 months ago.

I hated the way he treated me, my daughter and ignored my grand-daughter.

I hated his messy ways (picture organized clutter everywhere)

I resented the fact that I had to plan every vacation or outing.

I couldn't stand the way he critiqued my cooking..."It is Ok, or Next time I would do it this way

He hates my sister (twin) and makes no bones about it

I am struggling with the thought of divorce for the good or bad. I do love him. But, I don't know if my "panic" "sadness" ect... is fear based or love driven???? Thoughts?

me:51
H: 48
No kids together
M:14 years
seperated:Ask him to GET OUT 3/21/11
Piecing 09/14