I have not initiated any type of pursuing gesture since the very beginning
I don't know if I believe this to be tru.
I really can't think of what I have done that could be perceived as pursuing... If you have an example I would like to know, it has not been my intention.
I'll have to really think about this one. I would appreciate any other opinions. It would be a very different approach to what I have been doing, or at least trying to do.
I can keep myself from attaching expectations to it, I just don't want to push things in the wrong direction.
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Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.