Sometimes R talk also has its merits in airing out how we feel, I guess. Over the weekend, for both me and H tension was so high that you could cut the atmosphere with a knife.
After our discussion, things have simmered down, H has been acting nice and this leads to us being comfortable, able to sleep well, and generally having more productive conversations.
Yesterday, we had some guests, and H was upbeat about going to dinner with them and during dinner, we acted very much like a couple again, with H grabbing my drink to try it out, then saying his dish was so good (new item on menu) and then swapping out his plate with mine so I could try out his food. (i ordered an old favorite).
Somehow those little gestures make me feel connected to him, I don't want to read so much in them but it keeps the day to day living manageable for me.
Also, I have this observation about him when he is sleeping - when he is comfortable with me, he crosses over the midline and leans on me in his sleep, and he did that last night
I am looking forward to our Retrouvaille session! Hopefully they allow us to do it.
Me:49 H:45 D:12 M:14 T:18 Bomb: 6/26/10 EA: 9/3/10, fizzled out slowly, now ??? 11/5/11 Retrouvaille Finally piecing.... Its peaceful at last, but we got a looong way to go
