WAW tearing up our family part II

[ironMan]

Wow, thanks, onMyWay. I needed that.

I've had a bad few days as far as anger goes. W is dressing sexy to go to work ... baby is screaming for daddy all the time and wants pretty much nothing to do with W .... W is pouting about it ... and everything just makes me want to scrream "get the F out .... you want out .... you got it honey! Good f-ing luck"

But, I don't scream it. I do know my anger has shown though. And W pouts like a child about it.

A child .... is the best way to describe her lately.

But, yeah. I'm ready to let her go. I think she'll move soon anyway. I'm kind of looking forward to her leaving. I think it'll be easier for me to be her friend when she's not around all the time.

People have posted the stages of grieving here many times. Mine seems to consist of

bargaining
anger
anger
anger
more anger

lol ..... but ... I've always been a bit of an angry imp. I mean as long as I can remember. I've used agner and spite to propel me to great heights in every area of my life ... obviously except my R.

I just have to be understanding, as you say. And .. some days are better than others for me here. I go back and forth between "She must be hurting badly to think this is a better choice" ....... and then I go to "I can't even respect a woman who would do this to her family .... and I don't want somebody like that for the rest of my life. I deserve better"

So ..... spin the wheel ..... no idea where I'll end up.