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[ninelives]

I just called her. She was still asleep. she asked me to pick up a bunch of groceries for her and I am ok.

I asked her if it was awkard for her last night and she said no but she feels guilty. I didnt respond to that.

God I want her back and my family back. I know it could be so good and even waaaaay better than it was before but i dont know.

In my heart of hearts i dont think its going to happen.

I know I need to be patient but i am so nervous that she is going to change her mind, get her inheritence and then just live her life without me.

Sounds paranoid I know but I really believe that she thinks that our relationship is too far gone to be saved and to have the passion back that she may crave.

Only time will tell but sometimes I wonder if I wasnt better off just cutting my losses and moving forward.

Can i take some more open heart surgery from her.

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