Another New Day

[islander]

As I am sure everybody can tell, I am having an extremely hard time dealing with what just happened. This actually hurts just as much, if not more than, when I first heard ILYBANILWY and found out about the A.

It is incomprehensible for me what has happened in the last week. When we spoke, WHEN SHE SPOKE, she had such emotion and feeling toward me. We talked about everything bw us, what has occurred and what is going to occurr. We talked about how we were going to get our M back on track. She said everything right, asked all of the the right questions.

THEN UP AND CHANGES HER MIND?????

How does a person do that. Her mom was talking to her Sunday night trying to figure her out, and my W told her that I was like a close friend to her. REALLY. I don't ever in my life recall treating, hurting, disrespecting, lying to, and emotionally abusing (which I believe she just did) a distant friend, let alone an enemy or stranger.

For the first time in months, my W was acting like my W. She said she did not know why she did what she did, but that she was not going to hurt me any more. That she loved me. WTF!!!!

And how do I just unhear and forget everything that we talked about for 3 hrs over 2 days.

I know, I am not driving the car. I was just pushed out of the car and asked if I needed a ride at the same time.

I am hurting, venting, and trying to process all of this.

I just can't imagine doing this to another person, let alone the person you love doing this to me.

I have been blind sided again.