Need help ASAP- panic attacks

[angel61]

Thank you Pickle. Your sitch has forged ahead with mine and maybe, its less painful that way. But I feel that I am not yet ready, and H also has held on somewhat. I want to let go in a graceful way, not by exploding all over the place and destroying whatever fragile connection we still have. I know I am prolonging the agony.

I will see what Retrouvaille holds for us, if they will take us.

Then after Retro I will kiss H on the cheek, tell him that he should do what he needs to do, what he think will be best for all of us.

I should think he will be armed with enough knowledge to make a wise decision at that point.