I think Country is right about hoping and caring. The last few weeks I really started to feel better, and it was bc I was not spending all of my time hoping my W would come back. But I never stopped caring for her. I still hoped but not all day.

Now I am in such bad shape bc I Sartre hoping just as much as I was caring and got burnt. I am going to pull back as quickly as possible from hoping and get to a better place again.

BITS

M:34 W:28
SD:9
D:6 (pr)
M:3 T:6
Separated 1/16/11
ILYBNILWY 10/25/10
PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10

I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...