Mike - You are absolutely right for saying that I've fallen into old habits of arguing. And I did it to my wife because I couldn't let go of MY guilt for standing up for myself the day before (when I had the stomach knot). I was wondering why I was more critical and negative-feeling all of yesterday, and then after the conversation, I realized I was externalizing my guilt onto others. I feel horrible about it and have tried to motivate myself to snap out of this childish guilt trip.
Would it be a good idea to apologize to my wife in a letter or something right now?
Country Song - I'm going to back off a little on the self-confidence part, because I think I've been trying too hard. I can see definitely see now how this might come across as fake and prideful/smug in my wife's eyes. I was also wondering if I might've been doing too much of "fake till you make it" or "acts as if" things, such as acting like everything is fine, etc.
Determined - She DID manage to trigger my response by using keywords like "HUGE jerk", "liar", "irresponsible", "never will change", and "porn". Because I felt guilt and externalized it, I was basically one sensitive ticking time bomb.
So I'm really wondering if it's smart to apologize to my wife now or not? I feel like I've step on her toes big time and not feel like, even now, I'm not taking responsibility for how I behaved yesterday.
