PINCH ME of HIT ME with a 2x4

[ninelives]

Really need some advice here and would love to hear from Sandi2 again.

I think I have blown it yet again. I need a supply of 2x4's.

When we talked the other day, I was tired of all this drama and after I signed, I was just feeling that our M was over.

When she contacted me about "suicide talk", I was very concerned and realized that her life was in the toilet. I knew she was reaching out but i went too far.

I made demands,like, If we have any chance , you cant sleep with OM again or have any intimate contact with him. (She promised that she wouldnt) but cmon, is that possible at this stage.

I said, lets give this till the summer and see where we are at and she agreed that she needed to be on her own and get her head on straight. I agreed to that.

I asked her if she was 100% sure and she said she was. I wanted to put all our cards on the table. I asked that "Why has she said there is no love for me and then she said she loved me"
She said because she is coming out of her fog and realizes what is real and what is fake. Her thing with the OM is fake according to her and our love is real and she said she knows that I am the real thing.

I asked if she could see us making love again being passionate and she said that she could see all those things in time.

All Stupid questions on my part. NOw how do I do damage control.

I said you have to end it with OM and she said she couldnt just do it like that , she needed to do it on her time and that she had a plan but she wouldnt tell me what that was.

What course of action do I take now? Do i believe any of the things she said or just chalk that up to her being ultra depressed with the turn in her life.

When I stated that if you are just getting my hopes up again only to dash them later, then you are truly evil. She said that she would not do that after all she has put me through. That would make her a monster.

I need some direction, PLEASE

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