I know you have been saying that you want me to sign the papers.
Right now I am still your husband and what I am committed to is being the best husband I can be.
The challenge is, I have mixed feelings about what that really means.
Part of me says being the best husband means letting go and giving you everything you ask even if it hurts me.
Part of me says being the best husband means being firm and strong and always standing by your side in times of trouble and uncertainty.
I also feel there has been too much insecurity in our relationship and too many broken promises from both sides.
Just as you you have often felt before, right now my heart is being pulled in two directions and one way or another I really need some certainty.
In my session yesterday I had the most amazing breakthrough.
I discovered how something that happened to me as a child had been negatively impacting the relationship of every woman that I have ever been with.
And now it is simply gone. The counselor helped me see it in a completely different way, and now I am finally free to relax and be myself.
I have found so much value in these sessions that this morning I purchased 7 more. You are welcome to use as many or as few of those sessions as you need with or without me on the call. But I highly recommend you give yourself the gift of at least doing one or two on your own.
I have set up a call for you on monday march 21st The counsellor's name is <name> and at <time> you can call her directly at <number>.
To me this feels like a good decision and the best course of action to help each of us find our way.
It feels like we are now being more thoughtful and respectful towards each other, and it is showing our willingness to work together.
Regardless of what happens to us in the future, I am certain that having a professional, competent adviser helping us right now will make it easier for us to truly understand each other and remain the best of friends.
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What do you think? Do you guys see anything I should change or add?
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
