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The dreaded Pullback. Right on Q. So it is the next day and as I anticipated, W is considerably colder about R talk. There is none. I take my son10 skiing today and she texts me in the morning about snowpants. I ask her how her nightshift went and she says worse than the previous one.

But I get a vibe that there will be no followup to yesterdays block buster , grow old together, I love you conversation. And there is none. I try and keep the conversation light. She responds in kind.

She must be happy though because prior to this, I had gone dark on her again and would not respond to texts unless about children.

Her well is full again. I wonder if she will honor any of our conversation. She says she will end it with OM on her terms but I wonder if that is true. She also said she would not sleep with him again and promised me that more than once but again, talk is cheap.

I cant keep playing these games altough she insisted that she wasnt playing a game. I just cant understand when somebody says they are 100% sure that they will work back towards the marriage one day and then go completely cold about it.

I mean, why not say im pretty sure or 70% sure I want to work on this. But why say I will come back and I promise I will never leave again.

When I say that you said this before and she retorts but this time is different.

IDK, I think I have to face the facts that she is with OM for awhile and that getting back is really going to be a stretch.

Very discouraged tonight.

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