The Lies and Deception Killing Me

[abbey1989]

But then again....when I think about snooping....isn't knowledge power? I hate being in the dark! I am so accustomed to being the captain of my own ship so to speak. The not knowing H's next move makes me crazy. I feel like it is a game of chess.

I certainly have made it "easy" for him. I don't question him often about his day, where he has been, etc... I think that was one of the DB rules. Truthfully, I have caught him lying but have just let it slide on a couple of occasions. Trying to keep the peace. Trying to the be the one he wants to come home to. Not the nagging wife who gives him a hard time. But I feel like being that person sometimes!

I know he loves me, but probably (most likely) isn't "in love with me" anymore. But honestly...how long does the "in love" feeling really ever last? I am just too familiar. I think that is it. There is no mystery. He knows my every move from morning til night.