The Lies and Deception Killing Me

[abbey1989]

Thank you Starsky. I remember "Puppy" from a couple of years ago. I do....really do...appreciate your advice. Honestly, for me this is not about the sex. It is about preserving my marriage and family.

Sex is great and all...don't get me wrong...but I like it better when it happens "organically" rather than me feeling like I have to do this or that to serve a bigger purpose such as saving M.
Somehow takes the fun out of it! Will take advice about protection when/if we need to to. Thanks...

These last couple of days, I have been focusing on being a good friend to H, a good mother to my kids and kind soul to myself.

I guess H can't use the non-initiating sex thing as an excuse anymore. He could still accuse me of not trusting....but that was earned. We still haven't talked about anything having to do with relationship however we have plans to go to concerts, go on vacation this summer, etc... doesn't sound like he plans to leave anytime soon. I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop. I'm going to try not to snoop because as others have said on this board, it will and does only make ME feel bad when I turn something up.

Thanks for listening...... (I guess I'm pretty much like most on these boards who have no one to talk to about this stuff). I would never talk to my family, kids or friends about what has been going on. Just kind of suffer in silence.