Rough day. Understand W is out clubbing all night on the other side of the world. Everyone at work is talking about what a scam the trip is - must have cost a hundred thousand dollars, and no one here has had a raise in years. Apparently, this is a five star trip all around. Rare, short emails come at 3am her time. My head is filled with all sorts of thoughts....
Had a session with therapist today - he he agrees that what I've been trying to do is the best option. He said he's seen many people with similar issues and the things I'm doing - thanks to the good advice here - is better than most in my situation. Said many people in this situation aren't focused on their families, or making things better. But at the end of the session I admitted to him that I just don't think I can keep this going. I just don't feel right now like I can continue to do this. Even though I saw how lately how good things could be I thought all day about just giving up on M.
Going to put the boys to bed and watch some movie. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel better.....
