It's Time To Rock; Part I

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But, I guess I did feel like I got a glimpse inside her head this weekend.

How so, Country?

Well, I know I am projecting, but I will do it anyways. First, let me say, since we have had ZERO R talk since the absolute beginning, I have had no idea how she is feeling about things, whether or not she still thinks of me at all. So...

1. The fact that she did end up getting me a present, not just one from our D.
2. The gift from our D. That took a lot of time and effort. Get the paints, let my D create what I know was a huge mess, and then take the time to frame and wrap it. All of it was much more than I expected.
3. The card. Noting that she "thinks" of me. She is proud of me. The changes I have made. I had no idea if she had noticed or cared.
4. Singed the card "Love"
5. Cupcakes the next day. Again, quite a bit of effort on her part.
6. Noting that she "wished she could be there"
7. Many text/calls throughout the weekend asking how I was doing, happy birthdays, etc.
8. The hugs, especially the one on Saturday. And, even though the one on Sunday was shorter, she completely initiated that one.

I guess it was just a lot in one weekend. She did and said things she hasn't done since this all has started. I guess I just feel like I know now that at the very least she DOES still think of me. She DOES notice what I am doing. And I know I am really projecting here, but that she IS confused and still cares about me.

I know I could be, and probably am, wrong. But I have to take these things as positives. I know that my first reaction to all of this was actually a step back. But today, with it behind me, I think I can use it all for a big step forward.