First the goods news is, when her message appeared in my inbox, I did something new.
I didn't open it right away.
Instead, I got up. I walked away. I managed my state. I took control of my thoughts and feelings an got to a neutral place where I could observe rather than react.
That was big win for me and a positive step forward.
Now here's the confusing news...
She responded:
"I told you I work tonight!"
Actually, she told me a few days ago that she is teaching a class from 4:30 to 5:30. Our appointment is at 6 and it is on the phone, so I am confused by what she's saying.
She does work nights as well, but if she is working after teaching tonight it doesn't make much sense to me because she wouldn't have time to get from her teaching gig to her job.
At any rate, her response was less negatively charged than I expected, and as I said I am learning not to expect anything one way or another - just to simply be and see things as they are...
So I'm still feeling pretty good.
I'm gonna take my DB session at 6 pm, I won't call her at the time of the appointment, and meanwhile I will think some more about how I might reply to her response.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
