Here is me smiling at myself. That previous post wasn't exactly articulated as clearly as I thought that I was thinking, but I know how I am feeling.
What I'm feeling is my "neutral mind" model.
The awareness that while my negative mental impulses - the thoughts coming from that part of my mind which is always trying to protect me and steer me away from pain - while that is in constant opposition to my positive mental impulses - the thoughts coming from that part of my mind which is always so creative and steering me towards pleasure...
While those two opposing forces battle for supremacy within my brain, what allows me to rise above the drama and decide what is truly best is knowing my essential purpose.
From that neutral point of view that place within my mind and heart where I have already decided who I am and what I'm really all about, it is easier for me to gather information, to assess what is real, and make decision that serves my purpose.
With respect to my marriage and my wife, my essential purpose, the only real need here is to "be the best husband I can be."
Doing ONLY what meets the real need, and saying "No" to everything else, is helping me be me.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
