Guys I'm feeling really strong today so I'm just gonna put this out there...
I have now accepted the fact that I did not care enough about myself, my marriage, or my relationship with L---- to face these challenges when I was with her.
I have now also fully accepted the fact that for her it is too late, and she may never want to be anything more than freinds with me again.
She may never decide to work on our marriage. She may never want to live with me or sleep with me again.
I can now see and accept those as POSSIBILITIES just as easily as I can see and accept the POSSIBILITY of the polar opposite happening and us finally coming together and living happily ever after as I desire.
And, I am certain that somewhere deep inside of her, she still has that desire, too.
I watched my wife's favorite movie last night. The Notebook.
This woman is mine and I am hers.
Period.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
