Partner left after 9 yrs - reconciled now married!

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Thanks girls!! Had an amazing birthday week.. H whisked me off to Tortworth Court for a few days, a spa hotel in a castle with arboretum in the grounds.. the land and original buildings date from 13 something, but I think the main castle/court where we stayed was built in 1538 and it was incredible! All huge high wood pannelled ceilings and turrets. Our room was lovely, but noisy, so we complained and got moved to a huge suite, that was bigger than the ground floor of our house!! I hope he didnt spend too much (we are broke!) but he said he got a good break offer.

H booked me a suprise pregnancy massage and we used the swimming pool loads and had a lovely posh dinner and he got me some nice books, some tropical fish for my fishtank (not wrapped, lol, cant wait to go choose them!) and.. more tickets to the ballet. I reckon he is hooked now and secretly wants to ogle more men in see through tights

So .. I am officially old now

I was a bit emotional on my birthday..I briefly felt depressed and this isnt how I wanted to spend my 40th (I had wanted a big party!) and I felt tired and pregnant.. and H was stressed and worried and suddenly I saw with clarity just how wonderful it was, after the way he left, that I was even here in this hotel with him and I slapped myself mentally and totally snapped out of it.. pinned a big grin on my face and from that point on, just remembered to smile, be grateful and enjoyed it. Even 2 years on I am mindful of how lucky I was to get that elusive 2nd chance and how not to take anything in life for granted. Especially after the dreadful news in Japan. I cant watch it - not after seeing an old woman crying to the camera asking "have you seen my husband?". I cant bare the thought of losing H ever again or anything bad happening to him!