PINCH ME of HIT ME with a 2x4

[ninelives]

Dont know which one is better.

W texts me today after call with her sons. Since she has signed I have little contact with her. When she called I gave phone to sons right away. Didnt want to talk to her.

Actually a little upset with her that this is going down again. Our legal separation.

Let me back up, Im all over the map here. I text her requesting that she let my youngest stay with me a later tommorrow as I want to take him skiing. She is okay with that and I end the convo quickly.

She then texts me saying that skiing sounds like fun for me and the boys and then she begins with the drama. Those of you that have been following my sitch, know she was recently let go of her full time position and will now be part time which will make life for her tough.

So now the text. She wants S15 to stay with her on Monday as he rarely ever goes to her house, he doesnt want much to do with her since he found out about OM and her affair the night I found out. long story.

Then she writes, " Im just about ready to crack, I hate going to that place, referring to the place where she works,
Karma is real, then hints about possibly doing away with her life and would the insurance come through for me and the kids.

I read this and immediately call her. I ask her point blank if she is considering suicide because of the way she has effed up her life.

She assures me that not really and she would never do that with her kids in the picture but she cant believe how badly she has screwed up her life.

I say well, you know its too late to come back and she says that she has no intention of coming back. And keeps hinting that she wishes she never did what she did in the first place.

She says she is sorry that she texted that and that I should just ignore it but we talk some more and I get a sense that she is really unhappy that she took up with this low life piece of crap OM that caught her when she was at her lowest point. Not her words exactly but she is showing huge regrets.

I tell her that I cant belive she fell for his line of BS, that she thought a man that screws around on his wife when she is pregnant is any kind of good man. And I ask her if she is on solid ground with him. She says she doesnt want to talk about OM. But continues down poor me speech and is crying very hard about the poor decisions she has made.

We end the conversation but Im not sure how.