I know it may seem strange to most that I am having trouble, but well, I am. I am making large changes in accepting this new and sudden change I have been handed. I guess I am using this board to relieve some stress and also.....at times, my mind feels so....filled with facing, negative thoughts. Its difficult to not be able to have any place to vent out this frustration.
I have been dealing with this entire situation for 2 yrs, but mentally and psychologically, I always kept faith and hope. To have that completely snatched from you is traumatic. So, yeah...I get it, its closure....just trying to catch my emotions up to my brain.
Today I kept myself so busy I am exhausted. Met a friend for a spa day and it was really great.....wish I could do that more often, but it is so expensive.... Couldn't believe it was over....:)
Then, spent the day shopping and today I tried to find some physical activity classes that I can get involved in......
All in all, only cried and panicked once today....and I called a friend and went out for a walk on the track ASAP! It was really helpful!
Just tracking my day and my progress. I will chalk today as a successful day....Yeah!
M 5yrs D 9/2009 Ex-H moved back in - 5/2010 Ex-H left again 1/2011 exH remarried - first week Feb 2011 I found out - 2/22/2011
