26yrs is this the end

[JustStunned]

Kevc, IMO you are riding her rollercoaster. I think you should get off and begin to do things that make you better. From your posts I understand when you have gone dark she has managed to obtain a reaction from you within days. Then you are back on the rollercoaster with emotions see sawing up and down.

I think you need to detach emotionally from this sitch. The way I do this is by focusing on other things.

You posted you are working on your house. What about something outside the house? What did you do before or early in the M? What will you be doing for GAL in a few months?

I hunt game with a bow and arrow, so an archery league was one of my first GAL activities. It still is.

I used to CC ski. The gear was gathering dust in storage. So this was another GAL until the snow melted.

I used to run distance; 10ks. All I need is a good pair of shoes later in spring. My knees holding up would be a plus also.

The local junior college offers PE classes. Fencing is a possibility so is golf though I'd need to borrow clubs.

The company I work for is Danish. I am saving money for a rosetta stone in Danish.

My point being I will find things to do that requires my focus away from my sitch, and if they are social in nature that is even better.