I'm sorry 2Step. Take some time to let your emotions settle and don't do anything rash. I had a very similar conversation with my W on January 2nd. 2 months later things are looking up for my M. Things can change man. They can.

BITS
Denver

M 43
X 38
T 13
W moves out of home 11/2010
Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012
I request divorce 5/2012
W moves home 6/2012
Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015
I leave 3/2016
process of divorce