VS2D, in the first couple of pages in this thread there were suggestions about doing things for you, GALing. Then there was this post.
Originally Posted By: verysad2day
All that is great advice. Except, I can't do it. I feel the weekends are the only times for us to "hang out" which we do. During the week it is just TV time and then off to bed I go and he on the couch. His biggest complaint was that I was always off doing things. I am having a hard time GAL and being there for him
IMO hanging out is a big contributor to the rollercoaster you seem to be on. You need to create some space for your own peace. You need to GAL to make any progress.

IMO you need a break from the crazy. To think through your plan. I know this may sound sexist, and I may get slapped, but go spend a few hours pampering you. Go have a spa day. The change of scene will do you good and having someone doing for you will be an escape.

It doesn’t have to be expensive. The local cosmetology schools here run discount specials.
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