One thing I am learning is to simply to see things as they are. No better. No worse. No projection. No expectation.
Just. What. Is.
Sometimes I drive myself crazy trying to make things go my way. Trying to control and expect and prepare and anticipate and dictate.
I am learning that doesn't work.
What works is what I am being, doing and having right now in this very moment.
In this moment I am feeling grand.
I am focusing on things that empower me and that I can control. Not on things that disempower me or that I can't control.
For example, yesterday and today I have been working on:
Developing some new beliefs Achieving My goal of doing 10,000 lunges Finishing a difficult task at work I spoke with a divorce lawyer I spoke with an immigration lawyer I set up a meeting DB coach I bought a new copy of The Divorce Remedy instead of whining that it's still at home where I can't get it I bought a copy of a book called Getting Back Together I bough a copy of The Guide To Better Decisions by Spencer Johnson
All of these things are increasing my self-confidence, my skills, my feelings about myself...
What I am doing is validating my progress and my own self-worth.
I am no longer doing it for my wife, or to save my marriage.
I've made the shift. I'm moving forward. I'm being present, open, receptive, flexible...
And fun.
Life is too good, too short, too sweet for being scared.
And if I have to say and practice and think and feel and train all this great stuff into my brain a billion times or more before I know I've finally got it balls to bone...
So be it.
I am
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
