Hey all - been somewhat preoccupied the last couple of days.
Today is H's birthday. A year ago we were "recovering" and having moments of pure goodness in the wake of devastation. Today I received the final paperwork for our divorce. Papers to be signed on Tuesday. No trial. I don't know what to say.
During the past couple of days - each of the 3 friends who have seen me through this nightmare have had major crisis themselves. Thankfully I am at a stronger place where I can and did give back the love and support they gave to me. I realized what a gift God has given me to bring me to this place at this moment.
Back to the birthday - as most of you know, I have very little - barely any contact with H. This morning - I woke up after keeping my friend's baby boy over night. She is struggling with terrible post-partum and needed a good night's sleep. With the baby quietly sleeping in my arms - I reached for my cell phone and texted H the following: Please don't respond - just wanted to say Happy Birthday. I hope you find the life you are looking for. I will be signing the papers on Tuesday.
Not sure why I felt the need to send it. I've spent 30 of his 48 birthdays celebrating with him. It's a loss.
Moving forward...it's finally a BEAUTIFUL day here. I'm tackling the garage. That will leave only the basement and then the sign goes in the yard. Then my friend doesn't feel like she can be alone and her husband is going to be out - so I'm going to go spend the evening with her and that precious baby.
Leave for Austin Texas with son at the end of the week for 9 days with brother, sister-in-law, beautiful niece and nephew.
I am blessed!
M-48/XH-48 M=25/T=28 years Ds-24,22/S-18 D - 3/11 A Day at a Time
