It's too hard. Compared to what? It's not worth it. What about doing it is worth it? I can't do it. All the more reason to get it done It will never work. Unless I am certain it will work
I'm not good enough as I am.Ridiculous I don't deserve it. What am I focused on?
I don't feel like it. So what? It's too much trouble. Compared to what? He/she/they will get upset no matter what I do. What would that mean?
Nobody can understand. As long as I don't take a stand. Nobody is there for me. Nobody?
There are no guarantees. Death is guaranteed.
What is stupid or ridiculous about this/these beliefs is that first of all they simply are not true. They provide me with reasons and excuses for playing small and feeling like a victim, they only serve to help me avoid my response-abilities and being a mindless, purposeless fool is not what I'm about.
These elephant-sh*t beliefs are just the remnants of the tired old fearful elephant that had been cramping up my living room because I never had the courage to stand up and shoo him away for good.
And the truth is I finally DID stand up to my elephant step father. I took him down, I took him out, and now that insecure son of a bit*h is dead and buried and can never yell at me or make me feel small again.
And now I've confronted my mom about it. too. And I've told her in no uncertain terms that failed to stand up for me and helped me to feel worthless and to me that was unacceptable.
I told her I've been dragging that worthless piece of sh*t identity around with me all my life and IT IS NOT WHO I AM!!!
Who I am is...
Powerful beyond measure.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
