I am praying for you! I know this is hard, but look for the positives and be thankful for those. Your H is there and around, my H is not and is deeply involved with OW. I am thankful when I get to see him and he shows concern for D16. I have read here before about being the lighthouse that draws H home. This reminded me about being the Light of Christ. Be that light. You are doing great and stand strong in your faith.
"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him." Hebrews 11:1, 6
If you are on Facebook. Type in "The 40 Day Challenge" here is the link, I am not sure it will work or not The 40 Day Challenge It is an awesome challenge for wives and their marriages.
Blessings!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.