H takes all the blame - why?

[angel61]

Whew, i made it through yesterday. I never realized that fighting those feelings were so tiring. I was so exhausted by the end of the day that I fell asleep curled at the foot of the bed while listening to H teach math to D12.

I got out of work early coz I felt I was going to explode. I then sobbed loudly on the drive home. After picking up D12, I prayed the rosary. Then I went to the gym, but spent around 40 minutes talking to a friend from church about how I felt. She had many good suggestions of which I will be implementing some of them today - especially the one about a massage. I think I have to learn to pamper myself more to get through this! She reminded me to be a rock for D12, and helped my ego by telling me that I have been strong through all this.

When I got home from gym, H was home, and I said I wasn't eating coz I was too tired, and he proceeded to make me some food, telling me that if I needed anything I should just tell him and he will do it.

D12 then gave us a minor problem last night, she did not like the way I was teaching her her math homework and demanded that Dad teach her. We eneded up doing it together, and later, H told me not to takeoffense as he actually had promised D12, it was not because of my style or anything. I was touched by this, as he normally would find fault with how I handle D12.

He also work up in a good mood, chatting to me about various safe topics (news, etc.) so hopefully, we can live a calmer existence in the next few days. Again, take each day as it comes.

He appears to be in a "nesting" stage - getting back into tghe daily routine he is used to. There is some comfort in that for all of us.

I will just keep on praying and staying strong.