Living a Country Song - Part III

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In hindsight I do agree it was a mistake. My DB coach had told me to reach out every now again and gauge the response. I hadn’t really done it a whole lot because I never felt the time was appropriate. Well, after her actions yesterday I thought it might be the time. I guess not.

I wouldn’t say I am giving up, but I need to get myself out of this pattern. I start to feel good; I get out do my own thing and do a good job getting her out of my head. Then sure enough she creeps up the contact and pulls me back in. Then she pulls back and round and round we go. It causes me to take a step back every time I have moved forward, it is a terrible cycle.

I am going to try to put a halt to this pattern. I cannot let her suck me back in. That is what I mean by moving on, letting go.