Standing up to the punches

[Redo]

One nice news today i guess is that our daughter has put on some good weight. She's always been way below the percentile due to her numerous food allergies. Looks like she's slowly outgrowing her alergies. I guess the only bummer is that wife always said that daughter put on weight only when she was at her mom's house and not ours. It feels bad. But i'll be happy anywhere my daughter can thrive.

I am slowly beginning to realize that wife actually never left her family at all. They were always in our lives. every one of them, aunts, cousins, uncles. The best part for her is that they were just 200 miles away from us. I think she constantly compared our lives against what it would be if she were with her family. She always seems happy now that she's with her family.
Funny, I am 6000 miles from mine and just accepted that i would make a life of my own with my wife and child. Looks like she did not feel that way...

Getting cold feet for tomorrow's visit. Have to keep a happy and cheerful face.

I think wife has postponed any signing of final decree until this ceremony is over. So i know that next week might be a nightmare week. Looks like her lawyer is drawing up the final papers. I feel terrible. But i have accepted this. I'll move on. The only thing i gotta figure out is how to be there for my daughter effectively if i do end up with someone else.