Feeling a bit down today, guess it's to be expected from time to time.
Got a call from brother yesterday around dinner. Calls from family mean either they need money or someone's hospitalized. This was M being taken to hospital, severe pain in legs, infection in foot, missed dialysis the day before due to the pain. Brother reminds me that I have medical power of attorney. I let him know I'm going to Asia in two weeks and won't have a phone. If they need to get hold of me they'll have to email.
Family (M and B) live four hours away and I'm not close with them at all. It sounds really selfish, but I really don't want to visit unless she's dying. I have too many other things going on right now and I don't feel like rearranging all of it. I've already decided that if she goes while I'm overseas that I will not cut my vacation short.
Which leads to the next feeling of sadness, the huge earthquake in Japan. We'll be there in less than three weeks. While I'm sure where we're going will be ok (mostly SW of Tokyo), it's still disheartening to see all the damage and destruction knowing I'll be there soon.
The detaching and dim contact was also getting me down. Sent W a quick email wishing her a good trip today to visit SD. She called a few minutes later, before reading my email, asking for some mundane information. We chatted for a few minutes and brought up the issue of a musical that was rescheduled for the weekend after her Bday. Told her that our tickets were the same, just changed to that particular Sunday evening. She just wanted to make sure just in case she wants to go somewhere for her Bday. Mentioned that worst case, she could sell her ticket. The implication I got was Bday without me. Still, that's two months away and I can't get worked up about it now.
It's going to be a long weekend I suspect...
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011
