Let Us Be Outstanding Together - 2

[Busting Mode]

I know that my current beliefs are driving my current behavior.
Just like my WAW's current beliefs are driving her behavior.

I know she currently believes that as long as she stays in this marriage, then her deepest needs and desires will never be fulfilled.

And I know that every time I do something that is misaligned with my purpose and my vows, I immediately push her away.

Because I was unaware of this before, I have been unconsciously pushing her away again and again and again.

Because I was always more focused on trying to do things that would show or prove or convince her of certain things in order to make things go exactly as I want, there was no way that either of us could ever be truly happy and aligned together.

There was no way we could have remained feeling happy and free and natural being together.

So that means as long as I am trying to show her that I have changed, instead of simply changing for myself, the old stinky patterns will remain.

This is literally the challenge of a lifetime for me.

I can see that even this post is leading up to a defining moment for me.

Gotta slow way down and breathe...