Another day in the mines, digging for my heart of gold.
My feelings have a tinge of guilt right now - I know it's just the foul smell of decaying insecurity - but I'm mentioning it because it still reeks of those old feelings of unworthiness.
I was feeling a little guilty because I felt like I was receiving all kinds of love from people on these boards, and I wasn't really giving enough back by commenting on the threads of people who have been supporting me.
But F**k that sh*t.
I know that just by being here, being myself, being true, being open and receptive, feeling connected to each of you, and knowing I really do care about all of my new friends here, commenting on people's threads here and there when I can...
I can see that guilt really serves no purpose other than to keep me feeling and playing small.
More to come in a moment...
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
