Woke up and can't sleep tonight. W leaving Saturday for a week on trip with office and boss. And is already pushing to extend other upcoming work trips. Expressed my concerns nicely but firmly about new, longer trips in future. W is doing it anyway. Says what's the problem if she gets her family to come up to help with the kids.
Am so lonely. I miss my W and how we used to be together in all of this. I miss the man I used to be, the one who was happy, fun, a better dad, and confident of my Ws love. Having trouble determining what is reasonable to expect. I know others must go through this but I don't know of ANY three kid two career couples, or anyone who has successfully worked out these issues with travel, trust, etc. Am I a Neanderthal who can't deal with a spouse who's career is taking off? Or am I the supportive spouse who is taken advantage of, and tired to exhaustion? Do I have trust issues? Or would any other spouse feel this way?
Keep reminding myself that I have seen progress with the dbing.
