Recovering after a same sex affair - Part 3

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Ugh. I have gotten myself in a rut tonight, and it has been a hard one for me to get out of. Feeling pretty lonely right now.

I went into the office today where I usually work from home, so I guess it started when I pulled up to the empty house. That is usually when I have been the most emotional.

W has S tonight and tomorrow night. I have been trying to give space and working on detaching, so I have not tried to call or text today.

I asked my W yesterday to start thinking of a day that she would like to have our weekly dinner. I desperately want to send her a simple text right now, "dinner tomorrow night?". In the end, I know that would be counter-productive. I have mentioned it to her. She knows that it is on my mind. I should allow her to come to me when she has her answer.

Just having a really hard time dealing with the separation from my W and S right now. I miss them both, terribly. I also know that detachment is probably the right way to go. Difficult.

I am going out with the guys tomorrow night, so that should help. I hope.