TG, Nine, Punchy, D1, thanks for the 2x4's. I needed them. I was really down after this weekend and I think I let it get the best of me. As I have stated a thousand times, this is why I come here. If I wanted to make the same stupid mistakes over and over again, I could do that on my own. But, to change direction, look for a new option, or find a new path, that takes a "beginner's mind." And, there or times when I can't find mine. But, you guys and gals are here to help me find it. Thank you as always!!!
I don't know why I get so caught up in this mess some days. There are days when I am perfectly fine. Then, there are others where the world is coming apart. But, I have to work on my detaching. I have to do a better job of this or I will fail without a doubt. I was instructed to make contact by my coach, but when it didn't go well, I lost control. Bad move. Instead, what I should have done is told myself that it may take 100 texts before she responds someday and at least now I have three of them out of the way! I have to learn to accept the pace in which this thing is moving. I have to learn to accept the fact that GALing is for me, not her. My time in the gym is for me, not her. If I can't detach properly, I will not be able to handle the brief live encounters with her which will hinder my DBing. OK, I have to work on this...
I really have to get my act together in the next 48 hours. She is going to attend my brother's wedding on Saturday. Four hours in the same room with her will put me in my grave if I don't get my act together. Any suggestions on how to handle this will be much appreciated. Gritter, thoughts?
BITS never walk alone!
FOBD
Me: 39 W: 36 T: 15 yrs M: 9 yrs S: 09/10
So you can get on with your search, baby And I can get on with mine And maybe someday we will find, That it wasn't really wasted time...
