I am proud of a few accomplishments I've made in the recent few months:
1. Being porn-free since July last year, as in giving in to the need to look at porn due to whatever stimuli, e.g. stress, frustration, isolation, etc. 2. Got a job, loving it and excelling at it. 3. Lost a LOT of weight. Haven't weighed myself, but I'm regaining my lean muscle mass when I was swimmer (getting there, but far from over), and dropped my pant size from a 34 to a 31. I was fit when I came to the States 6 years ago and even then I was still a size 32! My old physical injuries don't hurt anymore..I feel great! 4. My self-confidence has increased significantly. I lost it a while ago, but now I have a better outlook of pretty much everything. Being free from the guilt of porn, connecting with God, and staying healthy have helped! 5. My relationship with Christ and His Father has deepened such that I feel more grounded and confident. I guess I have more love to give nowadays too. Having way less hate and criticism in me has, I think, allowed me to love and be more empathetic about others more easily. I still have a long way to go, but at least I'm glad I'm not ashamed to talk to Him now.
I have to give credit to EVERYONE in here for being part of my recovery! Your suggestions and advice and 2x4s have helped me along, and I still welcome them. After all, bad days are part of this journey as well.
I feel good about myself today, but I had a bad dream about my wife and I last night, so I've been missing her all day so far.
My poor wife, she's still bitter whenever she comes by to pick our son up. Can't she realize that our son can pick up on it when she brings a negative mood to the meeting? Can't she NOT fake smile? I don't think she wants to be happy, unless someone else comes along and does that for her. I think I should talk to her to be friendly at least for our son's sake.
Hang in there Alamo. You are doing great. Remember we can't control our WAWs and their behavior. Continue doing what you're doing.
You have made significant improvements within yourself. Keep the momentum going in that same positive direction. Be the lighthouse.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa
I am proud of a few accomplishments I've made in the recent few months:
1. Being porn-free since July last year, as in giving in to the need to look at porn due to whatever stimuli, e.g. stress, frustration, isolation, etc. 2. Got a job, loving it and excelling at it. 3. Lost a LOT of weight. Haven't weighed myself, but I'm regaining my lean muscle mass when I was swimmer (getting there, but far from over), and dropped my pant size from a 34 to a 31. I was fit when I came to the States 6 years ago and even then I was still a size 32! My old physical injuries don't hurt anymore..I feel great! 4. My self-confidence has increased significantly. I lost it a while ago, but now I have a better outlook of pretty much everything. Being free from the guilt of porn, connecting with God, and staying healthy have helped! 5. My relationship with Christ and His Father has deepened such that I feel more grounded and confident. I guess I have more love to give nowadays too. Having way less hate and criticism in me has, I think, allowed me to love and be more empathetic about others more easily. I still have a long way to go, but at least I'm glad I'm not ashamed to talk to Him now.
Wow, quite impressive. Way to go man !
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