I totally understand where you're coming from. I recognize the pain of coming to accept that the choices which adults in your life made when you were young changed you from becoming the person you might otherwise have become, without your ever having any input in it.
I think that feeling the pain is a HUGE step--the movement away from numbness signals that you are becoming more authentic with your emotions, more "alive." You're honouring what your child-self should have received, which will set that needy, lovely girl free. I continue to be so impressed by how you handle yourself on your journey.
