At this point I am still my own worst enemy. And my own best friend.
Seems a little self-absorbed to be spending so much time on my thread and not as much on others', but I know I've gotta take care of myself first, before I'm of any real use to others, and although I've seen some light I'm still not out of the woods.
Lo! I am still DBing!
I am still assessing the mistakes that I have made communicating with my wife, and looking to improve.
Whatever!
I'm running with it!
So I've noticed that ANY unchecked comment, question or emotion can lead to disastrous results given where my wife is at.
Any thing that even remotely appears to her as a threat, anything that remotely appears to her as me being controlling, as not listening, not hearing, not caring...
Any and all of those things can ONLY reinforce her beliefs that she knows me, that I will never change, and therefore her needs will never be met with me.
I keep on driving her further and further away with every stupid stumble.
It's a pattern that I am done with.
Wife said she cannot make our DB session at 5 pm on Monday. I have rescheduled it for 6 pm.
If I do not hear from her first, I will sent her an email on Sunday night telling her I have rescheduled and she is welcome to join me on the call or not.
If she does, great. If she doesn't, it doesn't matter.
I will simply take the call myself and discuss my next steps with my coach.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
