Sitting at home with myself, part 2

[Navyguy]

My last thread is locked...here's the latest info to get everyone up to speed:

So, last month when I went into the kids preschool to pay, the director asked me when the kids were going to be back and I said I don't know...I'm pretty sure she had figured out for herself that we were having M problems. So, she told me that she didn't want me to pay and that they would try to hold the kids' spots in school. Yesterday, D5's teacher sent W and I an e-mail saying we could come and pick up D5's stuff from the school.

W then sent me this:

"Hey, I was surprised by the email by the kids school. Have they been withdrawn? I feel sick, because I was feeling like I may be willing to come back to DC... Not for us, but for the kids. I do want them to be around both of us as much as possible...
I don't know how I'm going to sleep tonight because I'm scared the kids won't have their school to go back to.
We don't need to find separate places. Things really need to change though. What are your thoughts?"

I responded with:

"Hey, sorry I missed your call last night. I’m sick and I took some Nyquil before bed last night, so the phone didn't wake me up. I hope you ended up getting some sleep.

I was surprised by the e-mail too. I sent an e-mail to the directors of the school to let them know I’d be dropping off a check before my last trip out there and they replied and asked again when the kids were going to be back. I told her that I still didn’t know and that you were still in Colorado helping S with her new baby. I think she figured out for herself what was really going on and she told me that she didn’t want me to pay anymore until they came back, and that she would hold their spots for them. I don’t know if she didn’t communicate that to D5's teacher clearly, but I can call and find out.

If you’re thinking about coming back sometime soon I will call to let them know and go and drop off another check today.

I agree, things definitely need to change. That is why I have been working so hard on learning who I really am and figuring out the things I have done which pushed us apart. I know if you come back and I keep doing the same things you will continue to be miserable and there is no chance for things to change. I know that rebuilding would take time and lots of patience. I would want it to be on your terms and at your pace, and I am completely willing to do anything I can to make it happen."

It's now been about 24 hours, and still no response from her yet. I did skype with the kids last night and W seemed in a much better mood than she's been in for a long time...keeping my fingers cautiously crossed here.