my h and son gave me necklace

[MrBond]

Irregardless of the timeframe, you still haven't concentrated on making you happy.

"Oh my life is miserable" "The OW is a slut" "My son is cutting himself" "I can't do this or that"

You've got to stop that. If you don't make a conscious effort to WANT TO start feeling positive about yourself, no amount of Tony Robbins videos/CDs or therapists are going to be able to help you. You will also alienate your friends AND YOUR SON. Do you want him spending more time with your H? It will happen if all he sees is you falling into a pit BY CHOICE and not making an effort to get out of it.