Standing up to the punches

[Redo]

Thanks Mike:

Yup, I do realize that i definitely will have down days ahead. But i think i'll push my thinking in a more positive and constructive manner. I finally feel this weird feeling that I am an individual that people might actually like. Funny, i never felt like this before. I always felt that it was my wife's bad luck that she ended up with me. I am slowly recovering from that thinking mode.

Yup, you are right that I may be jumping from one pit to another. Yes i do find myself browsing the websites. What i need to do is generate this positive momentum within myself rather than looking outside. But thanks for your words of caution.

I guess the hardest part now is the fork in the road: At the end, do i even bother trying to win my W back?? Actually thats a misnomer, right? We really dont try to win our spouses back. We change for the better, hoping that our spouses recognize that return. Thats good. But honestly when i reflect back on our marriage, I am now beginning to see how i lost my self-identity completely. Not that my wife is to blame here. I enabled her. I enabled her family to point fingers at me. Now do i go back to this?? At this point i think there are only 2 threads. One is my daughter. And that's strong one. Next is that i still love my wife.... Or do i take the fork and try my hand at a new relationship. An unknown angel versus the known devil(nope not that my wife is one). I think i'll let time decide here. Meanwhile i'll work on myself making sure i dont get into situations that might jeopardize my future relationships.