but the closer I get the more scared I become of losing her. This has to be natural.
I think that this is completely normal. I feel the exact same way.
I'm happy for you Islander. Stay focused though. One thing that I can tell you is that the closer that you get to reconciling, the more focused that you need to be not to backslide into old habits.
BITS Denver
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce