So now it is finally clear to me emotionally as well as intellectually what these boards are all about.
In my head I always knew these boards were more about me becoming the best me possible than they were about saving my marriage.
I just didn't want to believe it.
Guess that old part of me that wanted to remain a victim, that needed to be dependent on other people, and need other people to validate him and give him his self-worth...
Guess that old passenger really liked his mule.
Gonna pause here and catch my breath.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
