PUTTING HOPE AWAY

[ninelives]

Well the drama contiued. She then called me on the phone and asked If I got her latest text. Apparently , she has lost her full time position as a nurses assistant at the hospital and will now go back to part time. Something she cannot stand. She now gets only a few shifts and is at the beck and call of getting called in to cover shifts. Its a nasty way to work as you can rarely plan anything.

Not only that, but she is practically broke, and owes so much money. I covered all of that before. She complained to me about how unfair it was that she did not get her job back and then came back to my Karma comment a week earlier. I said, well there may be something to that but then I leant a sympathetic ear.

I guess OM as a short order cook doesnt have the funds to help her. She made a reference to how bad she has screwed up her life and I only said. What do you want me to say?

We talked a bit more and I am concerned for her. She hasnt signed the papers yet for the legal separation and is now desperate to get her settlement money from me. I told her that all systems were go but she didnt want the divorce, just the legal separation.

We ended the conversation on good terms but she cried alot. Then at 10:45 she sent me another text stating.

"I just want to die, I am so sick of my whole useless life"

I asked if she was Ok , and then she responded again saying that she was Ok but was upset with the turn of events.

I almost felt that she wanted me to ask her to come home but all I said was, I guess a time machine wouldn't be a bad thing right now and she said, Yeah, she would want to erase the day she was born. Kind of a Pity party.

I gave her more words of encouragement and told her to grieve her dismissel and she will.

She said she was on the phone with her stewart and then around midnight, she texted me again and thanked me for helping her since i didnt have to at all.

I told her that things werent exactly rosy on this end either as I am trying to get the money to buy her out and ran into a little snag. I told her now that all this is gone down that my mortgage will be paid off when im 71 and hers will be paid off when she is in her 80's.

i asked her if she would do me a favour and that we could celebrate those dates together. She laughed and said it was a date.

Then she thanked me again as she really appreciated the support.

I said, with tongue firmly in cheek, "thats what ex husbands are for"

She texted back and said, OMG, im going to cry again and said ex wives are also there for tough times.

I didnt respond.

She called back in the morning and gave me more of an update of the sitch at work.

Im pretty sure my marriage is over for good. OM continues to be in her heart but at times I could feel the regret in her voice,

i dont want her coming back so I can be her meal ticket.

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