A New Day?

[islander]

And here is the PULL BACK!!!!!

But I have to remember it is progress,

W just called and said she did nit want to rush into moving back into our house. She said she wants to be sure she wants to be there. She said she feels that way now, but doesn't want to get trapped.

W said she wants to start counseling with me next week. A HUGE STEP IN ITSELF. I told her that I found a counselor for us, but asked her to call him to make an appointment, and she could talk to him on the phone at that time to see if she liked him and would feel comfortable seeing him. She agreed.

This is a huge blow to me considering how well I thought the last 2 nights went. She said she was thinking about staying at our house a couple nights a week or a week at a time to see how things were going. She said it may stay like that for a couple months, or she may decide to move in next week. She just wanted to be sure of herself.

She said she definitely wanted to work on our M, and I know that is a huge step from where I was just last week.

I will admit, I feel very hurt compared to how I felt last night. I believed that if she moved in she was committed to saving our M. Now I feel as though that is not the case, and that now I am being tested so to speak. I told her I would give her the time that she needed, and I will.

She reiterated that she wants to be completely honest with me from here on, and I agreed with her.

I hate the lull back, but I haven't yet really lost anything, I know I am still gaining ground.

This is still very hard. I am very scared of losing her for good.