Rollercoaster of love

[LearningPatience]

I'm definitely detaching, sometimes I wonder if too much...

Went out with a large group of friends for wings, beer and hockey game. W was there and sat kitty corner from me; our group had kinda sorted into boys and girls tables (how elementary school of us). Didn't talk to her much, talked more to the guys I was sitting with. She did ask about a text from her I ignored (good news about our escrow), responded back that yes, it was really good news. I left after the 2nd period and walked home, happy that I had hung out with friends and indifferent about W.

I'm really settling into having my own place. It might be hard to go back to living with someone.

W has been initiating almost all of the contact lately and I kinda like it.

Been listening to Pearl Jam this morning and one song that sticks out is I Am Mine. Some lyrics:

The selfish, they're all standing in line
Faithing and hoping to buy themselves time
Me, I figure as each breath goes by
I only own my mind

The North is to South what the clock is to time
There's east and there's west and there's everywhere life
I know I was born and I know that I'll die
The in between is mine
I am mine