Right now we're going live with the play-by-play...
The reply I sent 30 minutes ago (before I saw your post):
The session was really helpful. Gave me certainty on what I need to do for me, regardless of what happens with you and I in the future.
I'm not comfortable signing the papers yet. I agree with what you said about best friends working together to figure out what is best.
Given how you are feeling, the counselor seemed to think it would be of more use to you not to have me on the call. But it's your choice whether we speak to her together, or you talk to her alone.
Are you be able to call her on Monday at 5 pm as planned?
Her reply 25 minutes ago:
I said I could not do 5 bc I'm teaching from 430-530 gosh don't you remember Why won't you sign the papers that so aggravates and frustrates me! You say you will several times then you don't always contradicting yourself! I'm so tired of all this really I am!
My response 20 minutes ago:
I'm sorry I didn't hear you are working next monday from 4:30 to 5:30 pm and I never got the schedule you said you were going to send me.
I understand you are feeling frustrated. I am so tired of all of this as well.
You must understand that for me signing those papers is an irrevocable decision.
The moment I sign them you and I will be done forever and I will immediately start looking for someone else to share my life with.
I'm not going to apologize for first doing everything I can to be absolutely certain of my decision.
I told you the counselor was only available on Mondays. Is there another time this Monday that works better for you?
One good thing I've noticed is that I have been reluctant to count on people. I was thinking even the people on this board would not be here for me and I had to do this thing alone.
Even you, Truth. Part of me knew that you'd be here, and yet part of me was still reluctant to believe in you.
He/She/It sure does work in mysterious ways.
Will let you know as soon as she responds.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
